Hope for the Lost

The past couple of weeks, I’ve felt disconnected.  Nothing majorly bad has happened, although there are some financial issues that are getting a little depressing.

I’m trying to do the Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will take care of itself.  I’m trying very hard.  But my own crappy money management and the start of school has put a strain on me financially.

I’m not sleeping well.  The baby was sick.  I have ten millions things I need to do.

Yet I can’t focus on any of it. I can’t focus on this blog.  I can’t focus very well when I try to pray at night.

There is something very depressing about trying to pray, but not being able to focus on doing it.

There are many things for me to be thankful for.  My family.  Three lovely children. A husband I adore.  A job I love.  A roof over our heads and food in the cabinets.  There is no reason for me to feel so out of touch, but that’s been me for the past few weeks.

I’ve decided I’m tired of it.  I’m tired of worrying.  I’m tired of this lack of focus.

So writing my prayer out is my way of truly focusing on it.

Please God, help me.  Help me find a way out of this financial mess. Help me out of this exhausted funk that I’m in.  Help me focus on the things that matter the most, and a way out of things that matter more than they should, like money issues.  Help me find the energy to work out more because I know I feel better when I do.  Help me find the strength of will to eat better.  Give me the patience I need to work through the financial issues and the ability to see the paths you place before me to get me out of these messes.

I ask for your help in all things, Lord.

In Jesus Name,

Amen.